February 9, 2008 -
Well, I better update this damn blog thing, and figured I could get your attention with a headline like that. I did didn't I? Well, good. I'll fill you in on that later......
I find myself more and more these days not doing what I should be doing. I seem to keep forgetting things left and right. Later I try to backtrack and say what I "should" be doing in that instance and that I forgot. This sucks for me because I am always behind the curve. I always get whats second best. And its never 100% out there in the open for everyone to see. I have had to turn around numerous times at night to go back into places and have almost walked away from something that is potentially great. I have not said something and then tried to say it later. In the end the moment passed and it just didn't work.
I'm working on all of this stuff. It's something that's hard to overcome. But in the end will benefit me ten fold. I wish I could go into more detail about this situation that I'm in but I just can't. In my mind its like something from a movie and I would kind of like to keep it that way. All I need is a great soundtrack to go along with it. I'm thinking of bands like "Explosions In The Sky" or "This Will Destroy You" to do that. I find myself listening to these guys more and more because it keeps me in that "movie" state of mind. That kind of stuff makes me happy and makes me chuckle from time to time to think about it. I think about all of those instances that I had and all of the "what-ifs" start to hit me and I start to re-enact them inside my head and see them happen fictitiously in my head. But I just want those things to happen for real, and all it takes is a little bit better outlook on things and trying to be in the moment.
The piece that really hit home was when I watched Cloverfield for the first time. I saw the main character have a relationship with a friend for a few days here and there. And that each little bit of our lives is made up into small moments that we need to take advantage of. The main character had this relationship and thought it was best to break things off because he was going away. But what he didn't know is that that's not always the best thing to do. What he should have done was have all of those special moments in that time leading up to the "Cloverfield" moment. That even though he was getting ready to leave they still would have that short amount of time together where those moments just fit. Just have to take advantage of those moments when you can, and not hold back. Some might lump that in with jumping the gun on feelings and being too emotional or what have you, but I see it as just taking those moments as what they are. And there is nothing wrong with that.
Saying you are going to do it is one thing, and actually doing it is another. Just have to work on that with my personality. So in closing I guess, and to answer the question I posed at the beginning, is that the best thing you can do with your mouth is to open it even when your mind is telling you to not say that. Also the best thing you can do with your mouth is eat 3 bowls of cereal and then chug as much of an ice cold Dr. Pepper as you can........
I've told a few close friends this, and it makes for a pretty cool Bill Nye science project if you are really bored watching cartoons in your boxers on Saturday morning. But eat 3 bowls of cereal (preferable Fruity Pebbles or Cocoa Pebbles) but Corn Pops and anything high in sugar will probably do it. Then have a nice cold DP ready for you for when you get done. I'm talking ice cold. Like almost to the point of freezing (but not quite). Take those three bowls down and then right after you are done with your last bite of cereal crack open the can (or cup) and drink down as much as you possibly can. I beg anyone to make it past 3 seconds without starting to cry. You can't do it. The chemical reaction or whatever it is in your mouth causes so much disturbance/tingling that you actually start to cry.
That's the best thing you can do with your mouth.......in my mind anyway. Take care guys and I'll be sure to speak my mind a little better out there......it helps all of us in the end. Helps us both in those moments.......
